I handed in my papers and ended the day early. Why not, I deserved it.
I am a doormat. I know it, you know it… but what I have to know now it how to put my foot down and say how I really feel and do what I really want to do. Not what’s in the best interest of the greater good to make me feel like I’m miss Universe or something when in the end I become resentful and angry at myself. My new mantra: “I cannot please everyone but I can please myself” (not in that way… well sometimes in that way :P)
I’m in limbo. I’m in the same limbo I was in before I resigned but now I dont have to catch the train 4 hours a day and do I job I’m completely bored of. I think I need a challenge. A distraction… before I turn out like Vanessa (from Juno) all over again.
I’ve applied for a FT Banking job a Defcredit with full accredited training provided. Sure it’s not my dream but it can’t hurt to learn about managing money and it’s 10 minutes walk from home. I still haven’t heard back from Craig, I’m not sure if I will but I’m keeping an open mind. If he calls he calls.
Con seemed sad I was leaving. I think it’s mainly cos he didn’t have to worry about me. i was the one he could depend on [refer to “doormat” point i made earlier] I think we’d get along really well socially, you know, outside of work 😛 We really do just click.
I seem to click alot these days. I was speaking to a friend about it…. hmm maybe I’ll leave that deeper thought for a specific post. Oh and by the way….