So imagine all those women, checking their underwear. Going to the toilet is no longer just going to the toilet. I too have been where Alicia’s been. Sobbing on the bathroom floor, not exactly the best place to have a meltdown but you can’t seem to summon the strength to do anything but cry. Today I wished I was in my bathroom. Fate had other ideas.
It was 3pm and I was so excited about my photo shoot with Luke. I’d had a bit of a tough week and I needed the creative release. Also I’d been stressing. Since last Sunday I suffered cramps. Painful and erratic cramps that buckled me over and made my eye well up with tears, no matter where I was or what I was doing. On Tuesday and Wednesday I had spotting. Not something that happens to me. Steve and I were stressing. Steve would call just to ask about the cramps. Poor petal.
So I’m sitting at Luke & Gerard’s with Geoff and Zane. Not a tampon or pad in sight. I’m mortified, made an excuse to go home saying I’d be back in an hour or so. Mor. Tif. Ied. They don’t know, it’s Secret Women’s Business, and furthermore they’re gay so girlie bits and their functions don’t interest them in the slightest. I get home, calm down and break the news to Steve. Like me, he wasn’t happy… it was a week early. That has NEVER happened before. It’s only ever been late… which of course makes us think the worst.
I’m not sure what happened to me this week, all I know is that it was unusual and not like my cycle at all. I want to forget about baby making, charting, cycles, mucus and tiny baby jumpsuits on sale… but my body has other ideas. I’m attributing a lot of it to stress. Last week was hard but I’m looking ahead into a new week and it looks even harder. Work will be a strain but I have to push through it. I have photos to edit which I will post once completed. I have another photoshoot during the week and a Nutrimetics Make Up party on Sunday.Not to mention my website. Plans are being drawn, mock up are being created and graphics are being designed. It’s all very exciting. Thankfully I have two great friends willing to help out. So when I’m not working, giving Steve hugs or cleaning, I’m curled up with a textbook, taking notes or researching online. I have business cards to design, stalls to book, equipment and promotional gear to buy and photo shoots/models to book. phew.
Blogging will more that likely be non existant this week but you have my word that I will try my best. The photos of Luke will be up if not anything else. Be Good oxox