I’ve been glued to my computers (yes, I said computers, I’m hardcore) lately and not just to do fun things like read blogs or shop online, but to build my website.
I know new websites are built everyday but for me this is a huge moment. As I prepare myself for the launch I really do begin to feel like an astronaut. Limited air to breathe, little company and getting in a big rocket full of What If’s, essentially strapped to something that could explode at any moment but could also be one of the most thrilling journeys I’ll ever take.
When I was 12 I knew I wanted to do this, when I was 25 I still knew. Photography consumed my whole life in my senior years at school. It gave me my best friend, our shared passion. When it came time to go to University I lacked courage and self belief. I worked in retail instead. Four years later I was married and heart broken by infertility.
In 2008 I applied to SCA and got in. I lacked courage yet again and withdrew before the first semester even began. In 2009 I started making plans to start my business… then fell pregnant. Nothing else mattered and all plans were put on hold. I was ecstatic, I was finally going to be a Mumma. I studied and became a certified freelance photographer while I waited for Aidan’s arrival.
Just before Aidan turned one I picked up where I left off. I did workshops and online courses and researched and researched until I thought my head might explode. I booked photo sessions, emailed potential clients, was encouraged by my mentors and finally began to believe in my abilities, not only as a photographer but also as a business woman. It’s a change I’m still learning to accept.
With the launch date so very close and the website almost completed I feel like I’m finally ready for take off… but I’m so nervous I could wet myself.
Wish me luck!