Last week I had to go an see my gynecologist. It seems most women involuntarily flinch when they hear the words “Pap Smear” or “Gyno”. I mean who could blame us, it’s never a pleasant experience and definitely not something to write home to your parents about but it IS something we should all be doing every two years and I cannot stress this enough. When I was 17 I had my first pap smear and when the results came back I had CIN3, lots of biopsies over several years (and lots of tears) followed… but that’s another story.
I was sitting in the same chair I had sat in many times before except this time I was happy. I wasn’t there for more test results or internals or new medications or to find out why I couldn’t seem to have a baby. I was there just to check in, see how I was going on the pill and on the Duromine. As I waited I got nostalgic and scrolled through all the photos of Aidan on my phone and laughed quietly at the precious videos. I was extremely thankful, we’d come so far. I got the all clear from the doctor and spent the last few minutes of my appointment looking at photos of Aidan together. My gyno still calls him a miracle.
He and his wife live in a heritage listed home in the Nepean Valley, it’s stunningly beautiful and the practice is in the West Wing of the house. He also has another office at Westmead. I call these the gates of hope. I’ll never forget that emotionally turbulent and depressing night, wildly searching medical papers and published works by high profile gyno’s online, hoping to find someone with answers to my unrelenting question… “Why can’t I have a baby“. Then I found him and the rest is history (or if you’re new you can search the blog, there’s heaps of posts about it from 2007-2009).
The whole property is really beautiful and calming. I remember when I used to get so upset and I’d look out the window and the willow would sway in the wind, the fountain trickling and birds flitting about. It felt like a little haven, I felt nurtured and cared for. No one has all the answers but I’d found a man who was willing to try, who was honest and caring throughout the process and always had warm hands. Steve and I are glad that he’ll be by our side when we try again.
Do you get your lady parts serviced regularly?