Let me start by saying that finding a nanny is no picnic, even admitting you need the help feels like a kick in the shins. I’m thankful that I realised pretty early in that I wouldn’t be able to cope with the workload without some assistance so I started mentally preparing myself for the change months ago. Getting through the countless applications, finding someone perfect on paper only to find that they just didn’t fit when meeting in person, was a roller coaster of emotions.
When she came for the interview Aidan adored her within minutes. On Friday she worked for a few hours and just as they did the week prior, they clicked. It was a weird feeling, being in the house and having someone else cater for his needs whilst I wrote and wrote without interruption. Suddenly tasks that used to take me an hour only took 15 minutes as my chain of thought wasn’t broken, it was almost revolutionary!
The guilt was a b*tch though.
The only thing that gave me comfort was Aidan’s laughter. I heard them play hide & seek, tickle monster, reading books, counting blocks and racing cars. I wanted to be out there with them joining in on the fun but I needed to give them space so they could get to know each other, to start building trust. Most of the time I’ll be at home but some days I wont and it’s reassuring to know that when I can’t be near, he has one more person in his life he can rely on.
It’s very early days. I just hope that she feels at home with our family and enjoys spending her time here. I received so many emails and touching messages from readers. Thank you to those who shared their advice and personal experiences with me, it meant a lot and you have no idea how much it helped me through the process of finding a nanny for Aidan… hopefully I wont have to do it again for a long time.