… it could be my words halfway through a sentence, the lyrics halfway through a song or sometimes I could simply forget my need to pee. I wouldn’t say I was obessive complusive but when I start a project I have a tendancy to dive in, head first and not come up for air for days, weeks, sometimes months. I get so swept up in it all I forget the everyday menial things like loads of laundry that need doing, that maybe I should vacuum the floor or wipe down the bathroom sink. Why would I allow these boring things to fill my mind when I could be doing something exciting and challenging like my job? Well, for one thing I love my marriage.
Steve’s not the only one feeling a little neglected, in all seriousness I am too. I’ve been ignoring myself. Weight is creeping back on, I’m cramming in haircuts 30 minutes before daycare pickup whereas in the past they took up my entire afternoon and I haven’t had a facial in almost a year. I can’t blame Aidan, it’s not his fault and he’s not the kind of kid who’s joined to me at the hip. I can’t blame money because sometimes we do have enough for the occasional beauty splurge. I can’t blame Steve because he encourages it and is often the person who reminds me that my eye brows aren’t meant to get that crazy… nope, it’s all me.
Yesterday I stood up for myself. I got my dried up ends up off, something I’ve been meaning to do for awhile. I bought some new super comfy, yet sexy undies. I booked a facial for next week. I did my share of the housework and Steve’s share as a present. I also bought some new jammies… I never thought the last one would mean the most.
I came out into the lounge room this morning, wearing my new jammies from BigW. The boys just stared at me and smiled, Aidan rushed over and grabbed my dress and said “pretty mumma… nice!”. I was in the kitchen and Steve grabbed my bum on the way out the door to work. I’ve worn the same faded pink jammies for years, before Aidan, through pregnancy, breastfeeding and eating toast on the couch so I guess I wasn’t the only one ready for a change.