My eyelids are heavy but my eyes are dry and refuse to close. My mind races and I barely remember to blink. I’m sitting still but I’m exhausted, my muscles tense and ache even whilst willing themselves to relax. It’s in those moments, be it daylight or night, that music washes over me like the sea over a dry cracked plain. Quenching my thirst, soothing my burns and caressing my temples.
Since Aidan started preschool the sounds of silence bellow and overpower my thoughts. I miss him so much it pains me despite having prepared myself for this for months. As his laughter echo’s off the school walls, I walk glumly back to my car knowing full well that he’s in his element and I have to suck it up and get on with business. To not be as wasteful with my time as I have been in the past, to make it count.
The time passes swiftly and slowly all at once. My brain whirring, clicking and turning putting things in place, creating and exchanging ideas. If you saw me working: sprawled out over the bed, curled up on the couch, camped out in my studio or fidgeting infront of my standing desk (I’ll save that for another post) it might look as if I wasn’t achieving anything at all. My mind and fingers fly but mostly I live a sedentary life.
I get caught up in it all and it’s hard to shake it off, to walk away. I do, I make the time but some instances become so all consuming that you forget until the dull ache of tension sets in. It’s music that sets me free without even closing my eyes or shifting in my seat. It’s what wraps me up and cradles my soul when it feels like I’m being bound in elastic.
I know I’m not alone in feeling like this so I thought I’d share with you a few of my remedies. These albums all call to me for different reasons and I hope they inspire and relax you as they do me… enjoy.