Health should never be neglected and with my big New York trip just weeks away I had a frank talk to my doctor about how I’ve been feeling physically and emotionally. I explained that I was feeling a little lost since Aidan started Pre School and had begun leaning on my old crutch, comfort food.
I didn’t want to get lost in that pattern again so I asked to see a counsellor to discuss my issues deeper with. After a few embarrassed tears my appointment was scheduled. I also had my asthma checked, a pap smear, full blood tests and then waited for the results. Waiting was brutal.
Since I was 17 I’ve never had a normal pap smear result, they’ve always come back showing abnormal cells resulting in further biopsies. This time was different, not a single abnormal cell in sight. I cried ugly tears. There was one less hurdle between my vagina and another child. This moment was monumental, it had taken over 10 years to get to this point.
Why am I telling you all this? Because pap smears are important and no matter how young or old you are, how scary or painful you think the process is, it’s not as bad as you think and it needs to be done. Your sexual health is your responsibility and a part of that is being informed.
More good news rolled in, all my blood work came back and I got a clean bill of health. My kidney, liver, thyroid, suger levels, blood pressure etc all got gold stars. The only thing that was lacking was my Vitamin D levels and I’m now taking vitamins to increase it which should also help my mood.
I’m not saying I’m healthy enough to run a half marathon like my bestie Rhian did recently but I am working on my fitness. Aidan is my workout buddy. The streets of NYC are brutal but I know I’ll be pounding that pavement daily, sometimes in heels.
Whilst new clothes and beauty products are fun and can enhance our look we need to remember to invest in ourselves. To make time to work out and get health checks and allow ourselves to admit when we need help coping.
Body Confidence isn’t about looking fabulous 24/7 despite your size, race, career choice, financial situation, sexual orientation etc it’s about being in tune with who you are, your emotional and physical needs as an individual and not being afraid to stand up for them.