Yes, I lightened my hair. I’ll admit, I’m still getting used to it myself. I’d catch glimpses in the mirror and stop short, it feels totally weird to be a red head. My goal is to lighten my locks to an ashy dark blonde with lighter blonde highlights framing my face, this is just the transitional phase. I’m naturally a dark blonde and for the past 10 years I’ve been covering up the mousey colour with dark brown dye which will take awhile to remove safely.
I’d convinced myself that my blonde hair would wash me out, that darker colours made my pale blue eyes pop and if I’m completely honest, sometimes blonde hair on plus size women isn’t that flattering. Now before you grab your pitchforks I want to explain that I know that thinking is completely wrong… now. Back in 2003 shiny blonde locks were reserved for the skinny popular girls which cemented that thought process. I’m not saying that it’s right, I’m just saying that that’s the way it was.
I dyed my hair dark, I wore dark draped clothing and I accentuated my bust in almost every outfit because believed it was the only “good” curve I had. I lived by the fashion “rules” for women over a certain size and I was successful at being invisible for a very long time until one day I woke up and wanted to be seen. A dormant feminine side was trying to break free.
I started playing with fashion after Aidan was born and documented it all on my blog for the world to read. I slowly started to throw away those old rules and experiment with colour, texture and cut. I stopped believing that all I was being offered was all that there was and starting looking for new options both in Australia and overseas, all the while sharing them with you.
Over the last three or so years I’ve embraced my fashionable side wearing on trend pieces, sequins, bold prints, florals, embracing my love of statement necklaces and doing it unapologetically. So much so that others joined in and I started Aussie Curves to document and challenge that journey.
A place where women felt free of judgement and were met with positivity, understanding and an unbridled love of shopping. Many new Aussie Curve ladies have joined the ranks over the past year and I’ve so overjoyed by everyone’s contributions to the project, it would be nothing without them.
Witnessing everyone’s photos and hearing their stories has made me deeply reflective of my own personal challenges and the beliefs I had about my own self image. I feel like I have my personal style sorted, I know what I like but I still like to experiment and now it’s time for me to take it one step further, past the clothes, make up and jewellery and go for the root of my initial self loathing and social barrier. My hair.
Hair can posses a women’s thoughts, her creativity, her emotions and her personal sense of femininity. Bad hair can ruin a day, great hair can make it and sometimes a woman can crave change or feel the need to battle against it. New hair can be felt as a reincarnation, a second chance or in my case an alteration of my own self perception. Allowing myself to throw misguided rules out the window and to be me, just as I envisage myself to be.
- Sunglasses – Ezibuy gifted
- Earrings – Lane Bryant gifted
- Jacket – Autograph
- Peplum Top – City Chic
- Jeans – Torrid
- Flats – Payless USA
- Bag – Kate Spade
- Lips – “Hot Chocolate” Max Factor Giant Pen Stick gifted