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I was 4 when I had my first boyfriend, his name was Luke. Our parents were friends and we’d hang out all the time, holding hands and sitting in laundry tubs filled with water in the sun. It was the 80’s after all. In primary school boys wanted to me to be their girlfriend but I always said no. I didn’t need one, besides my dad would never let me.
The good girl routine lasted until I was in year 9 and 14 years old. I met a boy. He was the one all the girls wanted. It turned out that he wanted me. I stood up to my dad and asked permission to date, I think he was surprised it had taken that long.
I’ll always remember him wearing a red cap, baggy navy tees and those oversize denim shorts that were big in the 90s. He always smelt of Lynx Accelerate and now whenever a guy walks by wearing it I get flashbacks
We kissed all the time and he always held my hand even when they got sweaty in the Northern Territory sun. His name was Marcus and I was his and he was mine… for two years at least. His family moved and I was heartbroken but life goes on. He was my first, he was my every experience and all I knew. Losing him messed me up and I did stupid things.
I rebelled against love, swore that the only love worth having was the quick and dirty type. My self-esteem dropped and I felt like no one understood. My friends had played the boyfriend game for years, switching and swapping (it was a small town) so they didn’t get it. To reclaim my body I did things with it that I shouldn’t have, I binged. I binged on alcohol, on food, on dirty dancing, on kissing, on music and I wrote terrible poetry. I was 17.
I’d racked up a few liberating experiences, more stress relievers than anything worthy of a boyfriend status. Then I met Steve. I was determined that it would just be a casual thing, a bit of fun, nothing serious… then he made me fall in love with him. I tried everything to break it, to strain it, to make him end it swiftly so the inevitable pain of losing him wouldn’t be so bad. He resisted… he’s still resisting.
Now he’s my husband and having a boyfriend feels like something that happened many moons ago, the fleeting privilege of youth. It doesn’t have to be that way though I’ve realised. It’s captured in the elements, the smells, the textures, all entwined in memories.
An outfit can alter your mood evoke emotions from your past and a sense of youthfulness. Slipping into jeans always does that for me, they’re all I wore growing up in the bush. Denim and spaghetti strap singlet tops, my blue G-Shock watch and my gold heart necklace, a gift from my teenage love.
The Boyfriend Collection at Target is in store now and as I browsed through the racks I remembered how carefree it all was, the simpleness. I’ll never be as pure and natural in myself as I was back then and the effortlessness of the collection reflects that time.
Sizing is from an 8 up to 18 or 20 but that doesn’t mean it didn’t inspire something within me and perhaps it might inspire you to create a look of your own. In fact I personally selected all the pieces in store, pulled them together just as you would when at the shops and snapped the pics… it’s almost as if we were out shopping together!
I’ll be attending a very special Target event this morning for their new plus size label Belle Curve so there will be plenty of fashion and style pieces on offer for all sizes today, be sure to keep an eye on my instagram feed “@Danimezza”.
“She doesn’t settle for just anyone, you know you have to put it all on the line for her. She lives in the suburbs but acts like she’s from the city because you know that’s where she’s headed. She’s always up on trends and she works hard to play hard. She’s the leader of the pack.”
“She reads Frankie magazine and is always on Instagram. She has an overwhelming collection on sunglasses and a penchant for vintage silk lingerie. She’d wear dresses everyday if she didn’t love her vintage bike so much.”
“The tomboy of the pack who prefers a structured look that she secretly feels showcases her feminine features. She’s not into following trends but she loves to make them. Blending market finds, contrasting prints, neon’s all in a pared back simplicity.”
“She’s got places to be and things to do. She loves colour and always seems to find a way to make everything coordinate. She volunteers her time and loves to shop in store rather than online. Her idea of bliss is her morning coffee sipped in peace.”
What was your teenage personality like, better still what was your go-to outfit in high school?
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