2016 has kicked my ass.
I thought 2014 was hard, then the latter half of 2015 was brutal. I was optimistic about 2016, it held so much promise but yet here I am, crawling my way into 2017 exhausted and utterly done. The world in general has gone topsy turvy in the worst possible way, meanwhile I feel like I’m personally trying to run a marathon whilst neck deep in mud.
I had planned for this post to be a bit of a catch up on all the things I’ve been up to for the past year but as I sit here, willing myself to write it, I can’t bring myself to look back and share it. I didn’t wake up one day and decide to stop blogging, it just happened and I obviously needed the break. I came to think of it as my long service leave, I was burnt out. I also needed that time for myself. Instead of putting everything out there I needed to start keeping a few things close to my chest, to get into the practice of not seeking external validation. When your whole life is online it’s harder than you think. Instead of dredging up all the stress, shit as well as the rare good moments, I’m going to look forward and tell you about what’s going on right now.
I’m moving. I know, exciting right! The new house is only 3 minutes away from where we live now so not much will change in the grand scheme of things but it means the end of an extremely stressful relationship with my overly-attached-pop-around-take-forever landlord. The new place is freshly renovated throughout with a lovely kitchen, an awesome big bathroom, huge laundry and a big sunlit room perfect for sewing. It’s got high ceilings, big bedrooms and it’s so bright and airy, I’m beyond excited. I’m not even daunted by the moving process, I just want out. If you need me I’ll be lost in a sea of boxes.
Otherwise I’ll be on the golf course. Yep, I’m a golfer girl. I went to a free ladies clinic at my local club in September and I’ve been hooked ever since. I go almost every day and I just love it, I’m even a member now! At the base of it, golf is really just a mix of yoga, meditation, swinging a club, overcoming obstacles, being graceful and getting a ball in a hole. If you’re lucky you also get to wear cute outfits, I’m still on the hunt for mine but more about golf in another post.
Aidan has almost finished Grade 1 and we’re so proud of his academic achievements, they’re stellar and he’s up for a medal this year. He’s still swimming like a champ every Thursday but for this term we’ve added a couple of new sports since he loves a challenge and had become restless. He’s been playing soccer at school all year during breaks so we thought we’d trial summer soccer on Wednesday afternoons for a bit of fun. Turns out he’s a bit of a superstar and will be joining the team next season so I’ll be a Squad mum and a Soccer mum too. If that wasn’t enough, due to my sudden love of golf Aidan’s become interested so he’s a member now too and loves his little gentleman’s golf club on Mondays.
I was worried at first that it might be too many extra curricular commitments but then I remembered no one knows my son better than me, he’s an only child so logistically it’s easier for both of us to manage and helps boost his social groups so they’re not purely dependant on school based friendships. Swimming works on self discipline, overall fitness and coordination plus it can save his life. Soccer instills team work, leadership and involves physical contact. Golf expands on mathematic principles, personal conduct and requires focus. I also love that we can play golf together, even as a family and we have an awesome time.
Steve’s been running marathons, I know, mental. The zen I’ve found playing golf, he’s found running along mountain trails for hours on end. I’m so proud of him. If anyone has any tips for displaying medals post a pic in the comments of this post on facebook because at the moment they’re all just sitting in a crystal bowl and I’d like to give them more pride of place. He’s also a member of SES and on the P&C at school on top of his work and home commitments. In March it will be our 10th wedding anniversary and will mark 14 years together, I still completely love the dude.
In February I’ll be starting something I’m really excited about, my floristry course! As I mentioned this year was hard so I tried to turn that negative energy into being grateful. I wrote down three things I was grateful for every day, little moments, people, things, the weather etc. Six months later I turned 31 and I emptied the jar filled with tiny bits of paper and I tallied up what made me happiest. Now, I thought it would be fashion or art or food but surprisingly it was flowers. I knew I loved them but I was unaware how much they impacted me daily. I started analysing my life and seeing flowers everywhere, in my home, in my clothes, in my art, in my stationary, my linens, my books, my jewellery, my pinterest boards and even my blog and instagram. So I’ve signed up for a Cert III through TAFE only 30 mins from home and class is two days a week during school hours and it goes all year. I’m excited!
So that’s about the nuts and bolts of where I’m at right now. I have a busy husband, a busy son, a life packed with lots of good things going on but I am feeling the pressure a bit, especially with the move. When we do get down time we just like to spend it chilling out, playing with lego or the kicking each others butt on the playstation. I’m spending much more time offline, hanging out with friends, organising our home life and to be honest I’d be happier playing golf than blogging but I do miss writing so here I am.
A letter to you, with love!